<p>Chrissy Teigen has largely disappeared from the public eye since allegations of cyber-bulling emerged</p>

Chrissy Teigen has largely disappeared from the public eye since allegations of cyber-bulling emerged

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Chrissy Teigen has revealed she feels lost and depressed after being “cancelled” following a spate of online bullying allegations.

The model, 35, has largely vanished from social media since non-binary TV star Courtney Stodden accused her of brutally trolling them online when they were just a teen.

After briefly returning to Twitter in June and apologising to Stodden, Teigen published a lengthy a Instagram message on Wednesday describing how she feels “sick with herself”.

Sharing a photo of her legs in torn jeans as she lay across a sofa at home, the 35-year-old began her post: “Iiiii don’t really know what to say here…just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter s*** in real life.

“Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race.

“But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer. I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay.

“I’m not used to any other way!!”

The former swimsuit pin-up and wife of John Legend described the so-called “cancel club” as fascinating, writing: “I have learned a whollllle lot”.

“Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it,” she added.

Teigen acknowledged that complaining about being “cancelled” sounds “whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong”.

She said: “It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.”

The mum-of-two ended her statement by saying: “All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just…tired of being sick with myself all day.

“I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno. I can’t do this silent s*** anymore!

“If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank you and goodbye I love you.”

Teigen’s reputation took a battering after Stodden accused her of sending them messages urging them to kill themselves.

She was also criticised for posts about Lindsay Lohan’s self-harming struggles.

The 35-year-old promised to personally apologise to anyone she targeted and described the experience as “VERY humbling”.

She later threatened to launch legal action against fashion designer Michael Costello, alleging he shared faked messages claiming to be from her.

Her prediction that her latest remarks would see her “brutally picked apart” once again have proven to be accurate, with commentators accusing her of “putting herself in the ‘cancel club’.”

Here’s what they had to say:

However, scores of others sprung to her defence and shared their support.

Paris Hilton commented on Teigen’s Insta post: “Sending lots of love beauty.”

Celebrity hair stylist Jen Atkin wrote: “You stand for and do so many positive things. You’re smart. You’re funny. You’re so loved. You have an incredible life and future ahead and I love you. Come over. To Hawaii.”

And podcast host John Smith said: “I remember meeting you and thinking after I left, how you are the most incredible open, warm and honest person. You continue to be that same great person and have given so much and helped so many with your honesty feel less alone. You deserve so much love back now, so sending you the biggest hug.”

Her update racked up more than 700,000 likes in just 10 hours on the platform, so it doesn’t look as though she’s been that cancelled after all...

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